My father-in-law asked me earlier this afternoon if I had made any New Year's resolutions yet. I told him that I hadn't made any "official" resolutions yet. The truth is that every year I make resolutions and every year I fail miserably at keeping them. So in some respects, I might be more successful if I just skip the resolutions this year.
I know I won't really do that, but the temptation is there. Maybe instead of avoiding them altogether, I'll work at coming up with realistic goals...wow, what a novel idea. I tend to be an all or nothing kind of person (those of you who know me, know this all too well). I know no middle ground...I'm either at one extreme or the other. I know this isn't a good thing, but it's just the way I am (not a cop out, really).
I'm going to let myself think on these things tonight and tomorrow and see if I can come up with, what I think, are realistic resolutions for 2007 (again, if you know me, you are already thinking that if I'm coming up with them, that precludes them from being realistic). ;-)
Enough said about that.
This year ends with mixed emotions. There have been a lot of really great things this year...I finally graduated from college, Chris achieved his license of ministry, vacation in Myrtle Beach, trip to Boston, fantasy baseball camp with Chris' parents, Thanksgiving with my mom and brother, Christmas with my family in Naples, NY, and much more.
But, there have been some hard times and major disappointments this year, too. Most of these center around people that were in our lives at the beginning of the year but for one reason or another are no longer part of our lives. These "lost" relationships have been very difficult for me to deal with and if I'm to be perfectly honest with you, I'm still dealing with feelings related to these relationships.
I'm someone who has a hard time when I can't find closure in a situation. A lack of real closure causes me to dream about things and constantly turn them over in my mind. Is there something I could have or should have said or done?
This year also brought several physical challenges for me. The positive part is that Chris and I both got very consistent at the gym in February of this year. That was great...we go just about every morning and have made wonderful friends there. However, in spite of that, and probably due to the stress of the year, I now weigh more than I ever have...and while most people won't sympathize with that, I'm personally not happy about it.
In addition, I finally had to go on blood pressure medicine. While that's certainly not the end of the world, it definitely reminds me that I'm getting older.
I'm not ashmaed to say that I've faced a sort of depression this year. But I am well aware that I have so many things to be thankful for. I know I am very fortunate and thank God that I have the freedom, liberty and grace that I do. And although I continue to struggle with some of the negative aspects of this year, I am looking forward to a new year.
I pray that each and every one of you has a safe and happy New Year's Eve and a most blessed 2007.
P.S. Chris posted a ton of pictures from 2006...it's really like a Pictoral Year in Review. Check it out...they're posted in three parts.
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